Your Children Are The Reflection Of How Well You’ve Done In Life.
I dreamt that I was studying in this boarding school or some sort. The teachers and students live together in this huge school which is owned by the principal and her husband. The design of the school is very vintage and Victorian style with sturdy pillars and structures (Its almost like Hogwarts)
So I have a boyfriend, his name is Jason. There was this other guy whom I am very close to, Daniel. I think the feeling is mutual between Daniel and I but its kinda complicated here with my situation with Jason. Jason’s parents are more well to do and have high expectations of him. Naturally they want him to date a girl of high profile and of standard. They would never approve of me. Whereas for Daniel, his parents are very friendly and very well liked by people in the Neighbourhood. Sometimes when Daniel and I meet up for dates, and if we happen to see his parents, we would pretend we are doing some sort of studies or experimenting with a new aroma therapy oil scent (Idk why, but yeah aroma therapy oil lol) Daniels parents are more accepting of me. I rarely go on dates with jason cause he’s the popular kid in school and his parents would kill the both of us if we were ever seen together. So, dates with him aren’t as special and it’s quite pressuring.
One day after school, most of us students were playing Basketball at the court at level 6. The game ended and some of them stayed back to play more or just hang around. I was quite tired so I went of with the other kids. I realised that both Daniel and Jason were still at the basketball court hanging out with the rest so I decided to call them because I caught a glimpse of our principal on the way down back to our dorms. I called jason and he didn’t pick up. I called Daniel and when he picked up, I just didn’t know what to say to him. I felt like something fishy was going on up there. I hid at a corner of the stairwell and saw the principal went in to the basketball court sneakily. She stood at the door for a few mins seemingly observing their actions. And then she went back down with a smirk on her face. I then went up to have a look. I saw jason and two other guys screwing two girls at a corner of the basketball court! A while later I saw jason made a phone call. I think he’s probably calling one of his doctors to handle the fucked up girl and make sure she’s not pregnant or something. I was so angry and upset I ran back to my room and cried my eyes out. And then I remembered our principal standing at the door watching and smiling to herself. I thought that was weird.
The next morning I was woken up by a commotion down at the hall. Many of the kids were gathered there and I saw jason being handcuffed away with 2 other guys. He saw the look on my face and his face wasn’t apologetic but oddly more of crying for help. I scoffed at him and went off with the other kids staring at me from behind. The whole world thinks that I’ve been cheated on right now. Daniel came to my room and tried to explain the situation. He was there and he witnessed the whole thing but I use couldn’t listen. I was mad at him for not stopping jason. If he cared about me he would have stopped him. One day as I was studying with my friend, the cleaning lady came up to us and asked me about the phone connection in school. She then showed me her phone. It was Jason’s! I quickly asked her where she got this phone and she said she picked it up from the Basketball court and decided it was ok to use it. I looked through the pass history of phone records and saw that the phone call he made to the doctor that night of the incident wasn’t successful. Someone cut off the phone line for a period of time so he couldn’t make that phone call! I told the cleaning lady the truth and what I thought about the situation with the principal at the scene that night. The lady then pulled us to a corner and made sure no one was around. She told my friend and I that our principal is not who we think she is. She’s evil. The cleaning lady then showed us a secret passageway to the principals room and up to a secret stairwell that leads to everywhere in the school building. She literally got access every where and even places we never knew existed. We are not safe anymore. I always wondered why this fireplace was never used. It wasn’t even a fire place at all! It’s a trapdoor that can be pulled out that lead to a hidden stairwell. The stairwell hasn’t been used for awhile and the steps are filled with saw dust from the drilling of the trapdoor. The three of us creeped up to her room to collect some of her DNA samples so when we sue her, we have her evidence. We took her shower cap, a piece of scarf and her mug then ran back down as fast as we can. Halfway down, she and her husband was having a secret meeting in a balcony covered with sheer curtain. I’ve never seen that balcony before. I caught a glimpse of her husband through the curtain briefly but I’m not sure if he was looking our direction. I brushed the thought off and focused on getting out. I kept the evidence in a zip lock bag and told Daniel all about it. He decided to help me because he believed me. He was at the scene itself and felt something was off too. He think they were framed. And that’s when I woke up.
I was so angry when I woke up. I tried going back to sleep in hope to continue this amazing story. I wanted to know the ending and what happened. But, no. I had to be wide awake.
May is a month of events, upturns and downturns alike. Which makes it special for me. Its my birth month. And this year, We’re headed off to Paris! An eventful 12 day holiday.
I’ll be updating the few must see places in Paris that we’ve covered during the trip and what its special for.
Ever heard of Chantilly cream? This district is its birthplace! Not just famous for the delicacy, the castle offers a marvelous view and idea of the lavish lifestyle the kings and queens used to live. This place is also a wonderful place to go if you love horses or is a jockey.
The peaceful final resting place for the brothers is set across the sunflower fields a breezy walk away from the church.
This is said to be the exact location where the beloved Princess Diana had her fatal accident. It can be found at the cross junction while walking along the Seine River bank.
The one thing I’m sure every tourist that ever been to Paris did. The river cruise. I suggest taking the river cruise during sunset hours. You’ll get to experience the light up of the Eiffel Tower after sunset. Pretty romantic. The river cruise is approximately 1 Hour.
This place is pretty hard to find and you may get a culture shock once you exit the metro station. To get to this antique and contemporary arts market, you have to walk through a market selling imitation goods and weed bongs etc. You can kinda imagine the type of people you will be greeted with. Make sure you take care of your belongings while at it. This art market is a must go for people who love vintage antiques, contemporary art pieces, old records, vintage apparels and accessories.
I was in awe of this beautiful church. The restoration works were superb and full of effort. There are 15 stained glass panels in the whole church and each window depicts a series of events from the story Christ. Starting from The Genesis to The Revelation. The sheer serenity of this church gives you that space to slowly admire the art work of each window.
Just a slight walking distance away from Saint Chapelle. The fame brought about my the humpback of Notre Dame brought this church much recognition. But it should not be confused as the oldest church of France. Its just famous and definitely huge. We were lucky to be able to sit in for their evening mass. The gospel choir was amazing.
Montmatre is a rather different themed district from central Paris. Its more artsy-fartsy. This is the famous church there and we even witnessed a wedding photo shoot as this church offers a scenic viewpoint of Paris. The clear blue sky made the climb up there totally worth it. Its not everyday you get blue skies is Paris.
We took a 6 hour long road trip to the North of France. The destination, Mont Saint Michel! Our road trip towards Mont Saint Michel takes us through Honfleur and Deauville.
This beach is rather spectacular as the shoreline goes all the way up. And you can see some jockeys riding from time to time. This is also where France hold many celebrity red carpets events. Properties in Deauville are mostly weekend homes or rented out as its a pretty expensive estate. There are also a few beautiful homes we saw for rent or AirBnB here.
I cant even begin to describe how magnificent this palace is. Its huge beyond what your mind is estimating right now. And of course utterly beautiful. The interior tour of the palace takes you back in time to understand the French empire and the lavish life of the King.
This is just one of the gardens in Versailles palace. If you would like to tour the entire district of Versailles and the palace, I would highly recommend taking the entire day and slowly marvel at it. Access to different gardens and palace requires buying separate tickets.
Monet is a famous artist and his love for a diversity of flowers is evident from this garden in front of his humble home. He also has a Japanese Garden. This is a must go! Monet Garden is located at Giverny. You may like to search some amazing AirBnB around this area too.
This cathedral goes back more than a century old. You could take the guided tours up to the bell and also to the dungeon. I was sick that day and hence did not take the opportunity to do that.
The floor of the old cathedral has this labyrinth and the town takes on this logo as their symbol.
All in all, the trip to France was amazing. Although we didn’t get to go to some of the places we wanted to due to the strikes on petrol in the country. I would definitely do a road trip down to the rest of Europe in the future.
There was a sudden realization one day as I was typing one of my blog posts, my hands stopped and I stared at the screen. I was writing with such heartfelt emotions as though I was reaching out to someone.
Who could that be? Who is it all these while that drive me to publish my life’s journeys? Who will ever see these thoughts? Will it mean something to the reader?
I publish new feeds not to cater to the society and what is in trend. I do it to let you understand the small hiccups and bumps in my life. To walk you through the path I’ve taken.
And you are my future son and daughter.
There will come a time where I won’t be there for you. To see through your every need. I want to be there for you, to guide you through life’s obstacles and lessons. Every small part of my life has been and will continue to be documented here. Whenever you yearn for a mothers’ comfort and advice, there’s always a place to find solitude and answers you seek.
Our lives are constantly moving so fast and whizzing by without us even noticing it. I regret to tell you that I may not be the most perfect mother you needed to have. But I try to be the best. I guess this is a platform for me to prevent you from feeling lost without my guidance.
I promise to be the best mother I can be. But at times when I’m not there for you, this shall be the next best place to seek the answers you need and to feel my presence through my words.
How have I gotten so sentimental? Have I grown up and moved on from my playful adolescent years? How did I feel like I already love you even before your very existence? I never wanted to start a family before. But I’ve met a man who made me think twice and consider the odds. You must know, he is truly remarkable. And shall one day, be your father.
Whether or not you one day come to this world, I want to put the message across that I love you with all my heart and will love you for the rest of my life. Also, you have my heartfelt and sincere sorry to you, if I ever do lose the courage to bring you to this world.
For now, I am striving hard and doing my best to be able to one day, make your existence a reality.
There will come a time where you feel stuck in a situation you cant avoid. I can’t tell you what to do. But I can tell you how it feels like.
Your friends are earning more than you. They just started their work life and having the sudden boost of value in their bank account, they start going for more expensive options and dining at lavish restaurants. They always get you to come along because that’s what you guys do. Hang out, have fun and enjoy each others company. Just that now, things are a little different. But they don’t know it. A series of thoughts would flood through your brain throughout this process.
Do you tell them your concern? Will it make me sound pathetic? Do they know what I’m feeling? Will they understand and what should they do about it?
You see that your relationship has been strong such that they should understand your issues. You discuss the topic with them. And then, bigger problems arise.They offer to pay for your meals when you guys go try out the new cafe or restaurant in town. Oh, a famous DJ is here, lets go for his gig. They offer to pay and then said you can return the money anytime. Here’s what’s gonna be going through your head.
What do you think I am? Charity? I don’t want you to be the burden in the group and have you guys pay for my stuff just because I can’t afford it. I’d prefer not to go. But, I’ll miss out all the fun. You guys are gonna have so many inside jokes without me. Why did I let money get in the way of our friendship?
And soon enough, your friends will see that you always miss out the fun because you can’t afford this kind of lifestyle. So they accommodate to you and look for cheaper options for you. And then you’ll be feeling guilty about it and you decide… to withdraw yourself from the group.
This is the perfect typical example of how money can tear friendship apart. How long can this really go on for?
Money. It has become what society deem as happiness. But look deep within. Many of us can’t definitively say that we do not yearn for more money. Can you look at yourself and safely say that you don’t need more money because money does not equate to happiness? You can find joy outside of financial means. Will you be 100% true to yourself if you said that? If you do, good for you, you’ve probably reached some divine intervention where societal influences does not sway your principles. It is inevitable that we seem jealous of those who have the money and can do whatever they like because money can literally buy anything in the world.
I recently argued that we all are capable of taking advantage if having the privilege of being born into a rich family. Heres why I see it that way.
- Many times, I hear rich kids say that they want to succeed on their own means and not use what they have from their family. How much of this is true? If you knew that you have nothing to even begin with, how will you still have the confidence and audacity to say you can risk it all and make your way up to success? It is because you know that if all else fails, you have a safety net. They won’t know how it feels like to come from a poor family.
- You say that rich people doesn’t know the value of money. Of course they don’t. Because they have too much of it. Why would they need to worry about such things like the value of it? They have full access to endless amounts of it. Just like how we won’t ever know how hard it is to get water supply. Easy. Just turn on the tap.
But then again, there are always two sides to every acclamation. I can say that the rich kids think that way because they have a safety net. But I might also be wrong. Why must I be bothered with how others feel and what society tells me to think? I should develop a proactive mindset and have the will to succeed because that is exactly what I am going to do. Who says a kid from a poor family cannot succeed. If you have the will, you have a way.
But let us all remember that, nonetheless, we need to seek from deep within us, what true happiness means. Everyone has their own definition of happiness and being rich. Being rich doesn’t necessarily have to come in monetary terms. It can be in the form of a united family, friends who believe in you etc. And for those who are born into a privileged environments, do not take it for granted. For it can easily all go away. I believe everyone is privileged in our own way. I am privileged because I have a loving family who always supports me in every decision and parents who taught me and made me who I am today.
There will always be that underlying privilege that we all don’t see clearly. Think about what you are rich in and lend a helping hand to those who don’t share the same luxury as you do. Make the world a happier place. I am surrounded by a family rich in support and love. I simply do the same for the people I associate with. What will you be sharing? share
Have you ever gave it a thought? What if celebrities are only giving you hugs, autographs, taking selfies with you and waving happily just because that’s what buys them fame?
I came across this dilemma when I thought of the reverse situation in their point of view. When you’re a celebrity, you kind of work the same way as an Ancient Greek god. At least, the way Greek gods are portrayed in movies. If they lose the faith of worshippers, they lose their strength and power. If celebrities don’t succumb to the societal demands, they don’t have that power they possess anymore. Or do they?
Have you pictured yourself in a situation where you are amongst a throng of crazy fans trying to tug their way through to say, Beyoncé. Trying to get a selfie with her. What do you as a fan gain from that selfie? Bragging rights? What value does it have? To the fan and to the celebrity. Did we succumb to society’s influence that we forget to put a reason behind everything we do?
Think of the situation this way. While you happen to see a famous celebrity, I would rather give a respectful gesture just like how you would give to any other person you respect. Maybe nod your head and smile, in other words saying some sort of thank you for the inspiring work you do, or the new song you produced. Celebrities are human beings too. Don’t they at least get to enjoy their privacy?
There was another probing question in my head. Songs being produced these days are about sex, drugs, break ups (just to name a few). If you were to sit down and write a book, an inspirational quote, a song, a scene from your life, what would it be? Did you make good memories worthy enough to be penned down or to be heard by thousands? We live in a time where social demands over rules our own principles and motto in life. We forget the reason for our existence. We forget to create our own definition of happiness.
So think, what kind of songs are you capable of writing if you live a life filled with camera flashes, demands in the industry, what fans want from you.
The real question is. What do you really have to offer?
Have I ever told you how you make me feel? Creepy enough, homosapiens are attracted to their desired mates through the way they smell. Therefore, your odour (good or bad) plays a very significant role in the way your lover perceive you and feel about you. He/she sub consciously chose you based on the way you smell.
I couldn’t quite describe your scent based on a single word. Its a series of dances, waves of emotions, a scene from the most romantic movie, sounds of joy and laughter, gentle whiffs of fresh flowers.
You smell like the scene from The Sound of Music. She was wearing the vintage dress prancing in the mountains, overlooking flower fields and meadows with the little children voices chiming in the background. The serenity is one of a kind, feeling so small in the mountains where clouds are capable of casting shadows upon you, yet the warm blood coursing through your veins depicts power and might.
Gentle breeze bringing slight whiffs of fresh air and flowers from afar. I feel whole, radiant with peacefulness from within. My mind takes me on a musical, prancing around the meadows in a dainty dress, singing whatever that may cross my mind with a natural grin on my face. Slightly taken in the swing with the breeze, that feeling of invincibility and strength I never would have thought I had.
At age 23, Tina Fey was working at a YMCA.
At age 23, Oprah was fired from her first reporting job.
At age 24, Stephen King was working as a janitor and living in a trailer.
At age 27, Vincent Van Gogh failed as a missionary and decided to go to art school.
At age 28, J.K. Rowling was a suicidal single parent living on welfare.
At age 28, Wayne Coyne (from The Flaming Lips) was a fry cook.
At age 30, Harrison Ford was a carpenter.
At age 30, Martha Stewart was a stockbroker.
At age 37, Ang Lee was a stay-at-home-dad working odd jobs.
Julia Child released her first cookbook at age 39, and got her own cooking show at age 51.
Vera Wang failed to make the Olympic figure skating team, didn’t get the Editor-in-Chief position at Vogue, and designed her first dress at age 40.
Stan Lee didn’t release his first big comic book until he was 40.
Alan Rickman gave up his graphic design career to pursue acting at age 42.
Samuel L. Jackson didn’t get his first movie role until he was 46.
Morgan Freeman landed his first MAJOR movie role at age 52.
Kathryn Bigelow only reached international success when she made The Hurt Locker at age 57.
Grandma Moses didn’t begin her painting career until age 76.
Louise Bourgeois didn’t become a famous artist until she was 78.
Whatever your dream is, it is not too late to achieve it. You aren’t a failure because you haven’t found fame and fortune by the age of 21. Hell, it’s okay if you don’t even know what your dream is yet. Even if you’re flipping burgers, waiting tables or answering phones today, you never know where you’ll end up tomorrow.
Never tell yourself you’re too old to make it.
Never tell yourself you missed your chance.
Never tell yourself that you aren’t good enough.
You can do it. Whatever it is.
Recently, I met a man whom gave me much insights to the thoughts we millennials generate at such immense speed in our heads. Our generation has been all about the facts, inundated with endless information. But we miss out the very important key of understanding why we do and how it works. Fundamentally, he believe that we have a paradigm shift that is going to change the world and how we ultimately perceive things.
In the previous century, the constant emphasis on developing our left brain is very real. The western culture has dwell heavily on this. The left brain consists of the sciences, technology, engineering and mathematics (STEM). In order to be well liked and sought after in the industry, you need to be well versed in these four aspects. Is that the case for the future? Without a doubt, these four industry are well and booming these days. Will it be the same 10 years from now?
The much neglected power of the right brain reveals a level of beauty, creativity, emotion, intuitive thinking and art that we miss out. The reason why yoga, meditation and deep soul cleaning classes are the top picks these days. People are slowly shifting their paradigms to The Self. Finding the calmness and inner beauty that is so easily forgotten due to the constant bustling of the brain. The combined effort of the right and left brain is the ideal state of mind that we should all adopt. The ancient Greek philosopher Plato and Aristotle believed in the power of using both brains.
Technology advancement has lead us to a state of information overload that we tend to not pay attention to the words but are attracted towards, photographic and video content. We get our daily news online and through social media platforms. Why did you think memes only gained popularity in the recent years since its publications? People don’t bother reading the details anymore which explains why we often misinterpret certain headlines. The future content of advertising will definitely expect a drastic change.
In harnessing the power of both brains, do we finally see the true definition of the perceived object of interest. People of today must develop their right brain more. We all have fully functioning and ever buzzing brain activity in the left brain but heavily neglecting the right brain. In developing our right brain and have inner peace and self redemption, do we finally observe a level of beauty we never seen before. Hence, Beauty Will Redeem The Self.
I was on a trip with aunt Esther, uncle and my parents. And we went to watch the live filming of this Hindi comedy called “anything”.
It took place in this crowded lake where everyone is going about their daily activities. So the whole lake was filled with people and then at one go, everyone started to splashing around and having the time of their lives. Abruptly, the water started spinning like a hurricane towards the last guy at the end of the lake. And then he became white as a sheet. (I know, my subconscious is so damn racist lol) and then he got picked up into a picture frame and photoshopped into some aircraft. His expression was damn funny. I remember standing at the side of the lake and laughing so hard at it. Boom! Im suddenly in the aircraft with the guy and my parents! We had to parachute down to somewhere in Hong Kong. So yeah, we did. And then we landed in some monkey god temple. We walked around the premises and then I went to the toilet to remove my retainers and the toilet was super crowded with China people and I heard these two ladies with a toddler saying “wow! Her retainers look so big, their people must have very big teeth.”
I just shunned away and left to meet my parents. As we walked, we went to see a museum. It’s some artsy fartsy museum where the exhibits are along the side of the roads and it gives off a very hipster vibe. The arts ranges from graffiti to colorful window panels on a high rise building. I remember snapping so many photos on my disposable camera(back to old times, oddly enough). And then halfway we were meeting my dad’s friends at a restaurant by the sea side. It was so romantic and beautiful. It was evening time with the sunset by the beach, walking in to the restaurant and the fairy lights above our heads, that ethereal atmosphere. Just then, I saw Kaweng at one of the tables so I went up and said hi. And I was holding peachy(my soft toy) in my hands haha. And then yeah we went ahead to sit down at our table and had dinner.
A change of scene again and I was alone with my recruit agent. She was taking me out to see another job she had for me. Somehow or other, we fell asleep at a supermarket. Oddly enough, there was a yellow sofa near the cereal section and we just lay there sleeping. When we woke up, we headed to the place where she has a job for me. She started hinting me the job details and I immediately thought it’s a bad idea. It turns out to be a waitress job in this new trendy restaurant in clementi. But the waitresses skate around to serve food. I rejected the offer and then I was with my parents again, checking in to a hotel with my aunt and uncle.
Remember the China ladies with a toddler that I met in the toilet? Yeah, they were in our supposed hotel room. It got mixed up with their room. So we demanded they vacate and we went in and all of us just fell asleep immediately. I was suddenly teleported back to the time we had dinner by the beach during sunset. And after dinner, there was a special performance. Two singers, one a Hollywood celebrity singer and one a small scale pub singer will compete in each round to sing a famous song and someone in the crowd has to guess who is the Hollywood celebrity while listening to them blind folded. I only remember the last two pairs. Phoebe and Rachel from friends and chandler and lady gaga. They’re supposed to be one small scale singer and one Hollywood singer but idk why both of them are famous haha. I remember lady gaga sang with so much emotions and tears were running down her face while she sang. There was no doubt everyone knew it was her singing. So amazing…. And then I woke up.